so apparently this is the week the majority of my best friends decided to walk all over me. i'm not an angry person hardly ever, but the combo of events the past weeks have me on fucking FIRE.
one told me something in confidence, knowing even though i would disagree with it i wouldn't tell anyone BECAUSE i'm trustworthy. then said friend decides to lie about what they are doing, include me in the lie, and not tell me. finally something happens and the friend asks me to lie to cover their previous lies...DESPITE the fact they knew i disagreed with it. when i wouldn't they got pissed and they are considering terminating our friendship. well FUCK. YOU.
I was talking to another friend, made a joke (normal joke we say all the time), and then he told me to go fuck myself out of nowhere. then proceeds to tell me he has no friends and is all alone. i told him it's probably cause he tells his friends to fuck off for no damn reason. i was planning on hanging out with him that day too. FUCK. YOU.
another was hangin out with me only when she didn't have something better to do. if something comes up she would bail...either before or during a meetup. i called her out and she apologized. so she's cool.
but in general i'm getting really fucking sick of people not treating me with respect, abusing my trust, integrity, kindness and generosity. i know who the fuck i am, don't treat me like a child. we're not in fucking high school anymore. grow up and take responsibility for your own damn actions.
FUCK.
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the point of this i suppose is that i'm pissed right now cause i feel like some of my very best friends have deserted me over some lame shit. i'm hurt and i'm angry, but i'm not going to let this ruin my life. on the contrary, i plan on getting this worked out (with them preferably, or without them) and being a better person for it. *wipes brow
1 down, 2 to go.
life is hard..."get busy living, or get busy dying."