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A follow up...regardless of what you guys think, say, believe or feel...I know what it's like to be walking around and have everyone calling you crazy. It's like a legion thing test (not important atm). But as far as this dudes mental well-being goes, stuff like this I ain't gonna think bad about...I saw them too.
It was at the bronco bowl when Meredith was crying because she thought everyone hated her. I wanted to hug her so badly, to tell her that everyone didn't, but someone else had her attention and the most I could do was put my hand on her shoulder. After that I looked up, and there was soooo many of them, but theres only one that I could pick a face off of because I looked at it, and it at me. "It moved like quicksilver". I remember feeling Jesus being inside me, and me being tempted with the idea that I was Jesus too!!...That wasn't his thought...he got some outside static...I promise! That was the night I actually started trying to find God again. I went through sooo much shiz trying to get there and I'm still going through it. I can't keep my dang mouth and thoughts shut after reading something in proverbs. Something about keeping your eyes closed and whispering in darkness to make things come true. I can't stop talking shiz to Satan, Death, and all of hell. I've tried to stop...but I can't. I broke my x-g/f's Marylin Manson cd cuz something compelled me to do it. I'm not totally sure or not, but I think I've seen the same one I saw at the bronco bowl that night outside my window one night...it too "moved like quicksilver". He ain't alone on it...maybe hearing things outside his window at night whispering to him, and him getting pissed off and wanting them to go away. Bringing up thoughts of Su-0---, writing over his walls, or even just writing insanely (metaphorically speaking) on paper. Pshycologists would call this schiztophrenia, but Jesus clearly reminds us that Pshycology holds no reality in his eyes when all those people were calling Legion; Crazy, Insane, and Lunatic. Jesus didn't even have to state his name, Legion just saw him ran up and worshipped and then was healed and wasn't "crazy" no more. Just help him out ya'll...let 'im know he ain't the only one and I saw 'em too and they piss me the fk off.
In spite of our differences in the past, and buttin' heads that don't matter to me right now...because he's in trouble...big trouble...and remember drugs don't fk you up!!! They inhance your senses.
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